There’s something sacred about divine timing. We want it fast. We want it now. But God. He’s always working in the unseen, in the soil. And if you’ve ever felt like your life has been on pause while everyone else is running ahead, this is for you.

Because what I know for sure is this: You’re not behind. You’re being prepared.

So today, on my birthday, I’m not rushing to get to the next thing. I’m not chasing "catch up" energy. I’m sitting in the fullness of what God is doing right here. And I’m inviting you to do the same.

This is my blooming season. And maybe it’s yours too.

God Was Doing More Than I Could See

There were moments I questioned everything—God’s timing, my path, even my prayers. From the outside, it looked like I had it all together—productive, composed, and in control. But many days, I felt stuck—circling the same thoughts, the same prayers, trying to hold it all while wondering when the breakthrough would come. But beneath the surface, God was rebuilding me. Silently. Strategically.

I wasn’t being ignored. I was being developed.

Every "not yet" was a setup. Every quiet season was a classroom. And every time I felt unseen? God was doing more than I could see.

The soil was sacred, even when it didn’t feel like it. And now, looking back—I see it wasn’t delay. It was divine preparation.

This Season Called for Surrender

This wasn’t about doing more. It was about finally slowing down enough to hear God clearly.

I kept trying to understand the calling on my life, the weight of the anointing, the assignment I never asked for but couldn't shake. And because I didn't fully understand it, I didn’t accept it.

Instead of surrendering, I stayed busy. I filled the silence with more doing, more planning, more movement—trying to make sense of something that wasn’t meant to be figured out, but faithfully followed.

God didn’t ask me to do more. He was inviting me to stop, to be still, not just with my body but with my spirit, so I could receive what He was revealing.

I had to come to grips with the truth: He wasn’t calling me to understand it all. He was calling me to trust Him with it all. I had to unlearn some things I thought were strength. Pretending. Over-functioning. Smiling through silent suffering.

The version of me you see now? She’s not perfect, but she’s rooted.
She doesn’t need to prove. She’s planted in promise.

Coming out of surrender, I realized something important: it wasn’t just about blooming—it was about becoming whole enough to carry what I prayed for. I had to take care of myself in ways I hadn’t before—emotionally, spiritually, and mentally—so I could walk in purpose from a place of strength, not survival.

But surrender wasn’t the end of the process. It was the beginning of becoming.

I had to shift from doing to becoming—learning to embody Christian personal growth, not just execute what I know. Becoming meant getting honest about who I truly am and aligning my life with that truth. And once I started showing up as HER, the woman I knew I was called to be, everything changed.

I’m Not Chasing Visibility—I’m Guarding My Vessel

After surrender came clarity. And with that clarity came conviction—I don’t want platforms. I want presence.

I want to show up whole, not just polished. And that meant I had to stop watering what no longer fed me.

In this season, God redefined what growth looks like:

• Peace over performance
• Identity over image
• Legacy over likes

If it costs me approval but protects my assignment? I’ll take that.

And as I started guarding what God gave me, I realized: this level of growth wasn’t performative. It was personal.

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The Bloom You Can’t Manufacture

This isn’t a surface glow-up. This is spiritual.

Because real blooming in your spiritual life can’t be posted. It’s cultivated.

It looks like:

• Praying in silence while nobody claps
• Saying no to things that don’t honor your capacity
• Choosing rest over recognition
• Being faithful with your healing even when it’s hard

God doesn’t rush the bloom. And I stopped rushing Him.

And when growth becomes personal, it leads to purpose. Not hustle. Not pressure. Just obedience.

Something New Is Coming

What I know now is this: when God calls you into a season of becoming, He’s also preparing you to pour from a different place.

This part of my journey—this season of spiritual growth and surrender has opened up something fresh in me.  And while I don’t have all the answers, I do know that what’s blooming in me isn’t meant to stay private.

So if you’ve been in a season where God’s been pruning, pressing, and pulling, know this: you’re not being punished. You’re being prepared.

And what’s coming from me next will be in alignment with that truth.

Final Words

This year, I did what I’ve always done—tried to prove myself, do more, be more, and manage outcomes that were never mine to control. I thought if I could just do enough, I’d feel secure. But instead of peace, it brought exhaustion. I wasn’t striving for recognition—I was striving to know how things would unfold, to feel safe in the surrender. But it wasn’t until I laid that need down and chose to trust God anyway that I finally began to become. Not do, but become. That’s when the healing began. That’s when the bloom began to take root.

I stopped trying to rush what God was shaping.

And what bloomed from that place? It’s not just beauty—it’s purpose.

So if you’ve been asking God, "Why not yet?"
If you’ve felt stuck, overlooked, or out of sync—hear me:

You’re not behind. You’re in bloom.

And what looks delayed is often divine.

Reflection Prompt

You’ve been doing. Pushing. Holding it together.

But what would happen if you gave yourself permission to surrender?

Where have you been trying to control outcomes, waiting for clarity or guarantees, when God is simply asking you to take the next step in faith? To follow Him—not because it all makes sense, but because He is trustworthy? And what version of you is waiting on the other side of your becoming?

This isn’t just a moment to think. It’s a moment to listen. Reflect. Respond.
Because the soil you’ve been buried in, it’s starting to shift.

Trust His timing. Stay in the soil. Watch what grows.